Avril Lavigne - Keep Holding On

holy shit.
i'm like tearing a lot. and i dunno why.
my eyes dont hurt, but maybe smth else does..



























sometimes.. i just.. wonder if we will ever be... and it breaks me down to think otherwise..

the day i tore my right bicep brachii.. (4 eggs)

The Red Jumpsuit Aparratus - Cat & Mouse

you never gave me the chance...












no matter how many good deeds you did, even if its a million.. one wrong is enough to jeopardize all. that. fucking. painful. effort..

TODAY IS THE DAY I PASSED MY DRIVING BTT !! (first attempt) lol..
THURSDAY
4th JUNE 2009
9.50am
SSDC

We Are Broken

i am outside
and i've been waiting for the sun
with my wide eyes
i've seen worlds that don't belong
my mouth is dry with words i cannot verbalize
tell me why we live like this

keep me safe inside
your arms like towers
tower over me

yeah
cause we are broken
what must we do to restore
our innocence
and all the promise we adored
give us life again cause we just wanna be whole

lock the doors
cause i'd like to capture this voice
that came to me tonight
so everyone will have a choice
and under red lights
i'll show myself it wasn't forged
we're at war
we live like this

keep me safe inside
your arms like towers
tower over me

cause we are broken
what must we do to restore
our innocence
and all the promise we adored
give us life again cause we just wanna be whole

tower over me
tower over me
...and i'll take the truth at any cost.










seriously just fuck off, izzul..

wtf sia..
i should just quit living, seriously and fucking furiously -.-
i just feel so.... URGH!!
ccb.. its like the world is moving so fucking fast with
so many things going on at the same time..
WAIT UP for fuck's sake..

or maybe i should just fuck some of the burdens off my fucking chest..
and walk a little faster with what i have left
to catch up with the freaking world..
i've got no time for....
and yet seems like nothing is happening at all.. wtf.
feel like killing myself or smth.. (and breaking down is NOT in my vocab -.-)

i'm neither here nor there..
so i should just like fuck everything else and study non-stop and become an ugly geek..
geeks are better off in life anyway... NOWADAYS tt is..
hong wei might be the only person who knows EXACTLY what i mean..
and my life is fucking screwed up..






why cant life just go the way you want it to..
why is it that i am always the one who needs to work so much extra harder to get what i want..
when its a walk in the park to most of them...
why does my life have to be so complicated all the fucking time -.-
why am i trying so hard to get smth that doesnt even belong to me in the first place...
why is life so fucking unfair...
why.. do people who do not want that something as much as you do, get it and leave you with nth left to spur you on in life...
why...











fuck this world.. and this fucking life -.-

Why write with confidence?
Why try to save them?
We try to not forget
It's so much better there
Did you think you could make it on your own?
It was so much better there

This won't mean anything...









fuck you la..