ugh.. my shoulder hurts ALOT.

crap lah, it fully recovered for one day..
and i just HAD to take advantage of that and go all out and shoot
almost the whole day -.-

now its even MORE injured than last time..







good job, izzul..

holy shit, i cant believe i'm on desmond's friendster page playing Gold Miner o.o
haha, its actually quite addictive really,
i keep failing at level 6 lah
i think i've been playing for more than an hour liao..
this ONLY happens when i am sian, or i have too much time on my hands
(which i actually dont...)

so to get myself away from tt awfully addictive flash game,
i forced myself to blog.. i think.
just took out my contacts
and i kinda dunno what to do with the hot-dog bun that my brother left in my room,
staring at me...
i WILL NOT succumb to the temptation!!

you know why?
i ate today like the word 'fat' ceased even in fat ppl.
like cholesterol, sodium and FAT
didnt exist..
i ate fried rice in the morning with 2 eggs.
ate 3 piece KFC chicken at arnd noon (got it free from the red camp thing - school sponsor)
ate subway cookies that i bought from the canteen 1 underpass with Father
ate the atrium fatty buns that cost me $1.35 each -.-
ate cheezles that Father bought from Cheers in school..

wth.. on my normal school day
all i would have eaten is ONE Chicken Roll SIM MegaBites Sandwich
which has cabbage and tomatoes in it
and tts all o.O
shit, i exeeded my normal diet quota,
200 push ups and 100 crunches (ROEL EDITION)
hahaha,
i'm so gonna die tonight so...
i Must enjoy this moment right now as much as i can
:D

alright SPORTS CAMP GL TRAINING on Monday...
was FUN!!!
Sports Camp was more fun lah of course
but it was only the first training
so cant expect much i guess, no.
just nostalgic, the cheers, the craziness, the spasticity of my previous GLs
who are now either ex-co or helpers, haha
its just fun fun FUN!
made quite a handful of new friends too as usual
and got a lot of **** ** also!!!
WOOTS!! (:
cant wait for the next training,
must pia to get selected, and THIS GOES OUT TO JOSHUA CHONG ALSO!!!
go all the way man! we WILL get through this(:

oh, did i mention that joshua's blog is like one of the nicest blog to read?!
well, i'm saying it Now. his blog is just entertaining, haha. it makes me laugh all the time although it IS hard to read lah since your words are all so small cramped up together like what i'm doing right now.. (i bet he'll be like, "oh, no wonder.. i was wondering why he suddenly cramp all the words like tt." Lol) your primary school teacher never teach you how to put spacing in your paragraphs one ah? like that how to read properly lah Uncle?!

btw, GET WELL SOON JOSH!
its not the time to be getting sick uh
got 9 days to recover before the next training, lol

okay, i think i have had enough rest from that lame game..
i go........ do sth..





(:

fear..
hate..
excited..
useless..
happy...
nervous..
love..
angry..
envious..
unwell..
pleasure..
jealousy..
pain...




feelings..
emotions...
why cant i just live without them.. i dont need it...


i dont care..

i've got a million things stuck in my mind

tts supposed to be said out to you

but i just cant muster the courage to...





imagine ME... dead..

I'm thinking of you





In my sleepless solitude tonight





If it's wrong to love you





Then my heart just won't let me be right





'Cause I'm drowned in you





And I won't pull through





Without you by my side

hais..
today was a very tiring day.
didnt sleep too early ystd night,
den woke up at 5.30am this morning just to get to pasir ris by 7.30am
the people were okay,
quite cute lah, i shout how many seconds left
den a few groups of them tgt shout help me countdown, lol

den during one of the breaks, got one group of boys told and also ask me a lot of things
about 'that girl' as they referred to just now.
and they thought 'that girl' was my sister -.-
and coach was my father ?!
Lol

left the school at arnd 11.45am
and headed to kong hwa primary to join the rest
after tt we went to have lunch lor
nth much.
after tt coach sent me off to school

after class, i went down to range cus i wana help auntie pat and coach
and also cus josh call me go one
den when i reach there,
josh was at piano class...
waste my time.. lol, joking
i helped auntie pat cut the colored tapes for the arrows
and in the process i cut my finger -.-
helped coach do some stuff too

did some static exercises like push-ups, core training and stuff near the upper range
den after tt, we all went off
coach sent auntie pat they all back home
den coach and me go meet auntie whitney at bpp


she bought a hell lot of groceries lah o.o


den coach and me go makan.
he bring me to
this place called Naked Fish Express i think
the food there very nice lah
den we order 3 meals share, haha
halfway, auntie whitney joined us
den we talk talk talk lor

most of the time, they were telling me abt their 4 girls
and they told me a secret also,
tell me not to say de, lol
talk and eat and talk until arnd 8pm like tt
den they send me to mrt

tts all for today i think,
tmr got another one at pasir ris
but only more tiring..
got to bring all my archery stuff,
my laptop for CATS and clothes for S&W..


sian lah..
whole body still hurts from training with Roel on sunday...







nothing has changed..

hais...
since it's more or less over and done with..
(although it's really not,)
maybe one day i can actually say tt
"i'm over it".. just like Katharine

i guess there's just no use brooding over such things,
tt doesnt really matter on the other side..
happiness..?
HAH..
*** **** made me **** *********..




got work tmr..
i dont wana see...
but i cant back out now, i alrd PROMISED..


time: 10.00 pm...

its time to forget but not forgive...