wtf sia..
i should just quit living, seriously and fucking furiously -.-
i just feel so.... URGH!!
ccb.. its like the world is moving so fucking fast with
so many things going on at the same time..
WAIT UP for fuck's sake..

or maybe i should just fuck some of the burdens off my fucking chest..
and walk a little faster with what i have left
to catch up with the freaking world..
i've got no time for....
and yet seems like nothing is happening at all.. wtf.
feel like killing myself or smth.. (and breaking down is NOT in my vocab -.-)

i'm neither here nor there..
so i should just like fuck everything else and study non-stop and become an ugly geek..
geeks are better off in life anyway... NOWADAYS tt is..
hong wei might be the only person who knows EXACTLY what i mean..
and my life is fucking screwed up..






why cant life just go the way you want it to..
why is it that i am always the one who needs to work so much extra harder to get what i want..
when its a walk in the park to most of them...
why does my life have to be so complicated all the fucking time -.-
why am i trying so hard to get smth that doesnt even belong to me in the first place...
why is life so fucking unfair...
why.. do people who do not want that something as much as you do, get it and leave you with nth left to spur you on in life...
why...











fuck this world.. and this fucking life -.-

Why write with confidence?
Why try to save them?
We try to not forget
It's so much better there
Did you think you could make it on your own?
It was so much better there

This won't mean anything...









fuck you la..