OMG o.o
i just saw the number of posts
on vanessa's blog this morning
a lot sia
the post abt her dream was the longest
post i've ever seen in my life
my eyes almost cramp before i even read finish,
hahaha

so now i'm trying to squeeze the piano vid
i tried to send ness the other time
into this post
first time playing tt song after i learnt it luh
i'm very noob, i know..



its a short part from
Sadness & Sorrow





stupid video is taking damn long to upload..
kinda make me think abt deleting it
cus its only 50% now.
so slow lah -.-
and also since people will only laugh when they see it
aiya, dun care lah
laugh den laugh lor
first time playing it nia (:


and vanessa just called me 'evil'
and said tt i was the cause of her nightmare -.-
hahaha




something's a secret :P

what to do at 2.30 pm??
i woke up at 1.30 pm just now, lol
tts 9 hours of PIG-ish sleep
cant believe i actually wasted so much of my life sleeping.
so whole family's out except me and my sis.
she studying for her Os'

cant go out.
cus then she'll be alone at home
if she's a guy den nvm lah
cus he sure can take care of himself

ahh.. i wana go range and learn some things from coach.
although i dont have my inno :\
bad enough i always miss the Sunday morning training
hais..

mum pat called in the morning
and asked me if i could work
but now sch reopen i can only work on wed and thurs morning
cus my classes start in the afternoon on those days
maybe i'll skip some classes once in a while
haha, quite fun(:

anw, ness is online but i cannot talk to her!!
either my msn spoil or hers spoil
i also dunno.
maybe i try restart com

2.44 am!!
now is exactly the 22nd hour tt i'm awake since
4.45 am yesterday morning for saturday training, lol

i'm still chatting with ness online, haha
her blog posts are Damn funny lah
but maybe its cus she's *whispers* .... retarded.
hahaha, joking(:


and today (Sunday) there's supposed to be a compulsory
training at Zheng Hua for NPAC cus, according to the seniors,
some minister or important ppl are coming down to see
and its supposed to train our mental or smth..


but i'm not going without my innocarbon! (:
more rest for me today then.
i think the pepsi twist made me a bit dizzy, Lol
spasticness is kicking in liao!

baby baby baby baby baby baby baby baby baby baby baby baby baby baby baby baby baby baby baby baby baby baby baby baby baby baby baby baby baby baby baby baby baby baby baby baby baby baby baby baby baby baby baby baby baby baby baby baby baby baby baby baby baby baby baby baby baby baby baby baby baby baby baby baby baby baby baby baby baby baby baby baby baby baby baby baby baby baby baby baby baby baby baby baby baby baby baby baby baby baby baby baby baby baby baby baby baby baby....



hmmm, if you said 'baby' tt many times, you'll forget what the word even means o.o

ughhh, vanessa!!!

shit you lah, next time i go overseas den i will post a list of
the TOP 3 things i DONT MISS!!
and i think i alrd know who's gonna be on top :P

the red jumpsuit apparatus - your guardian angel

this is the only full song i know how to play on the guitar
but thing is, i havent touched the guitar in 2 months
the only thing i've touched since then
was my bow and arrows, lol

hmm, maybe one day i should take a video
of me playing the song and post it here(:
MAYBE ONLY
i shy uh,
and also scared people laugh at my noobness

anw, here are part the song lyrics
which i think are very very meaningful (:



When I see your smile,
Tears roll down my face.
I can't replace.
And now that I'm stronger, I have figured out,
How this world turns cold and it breaks through my soul.
And I know I'll find deep inside me,
I can be the one.

I will never let you fall. (let you fall.)
I'll stand up with you forever.
I'll be there for you through it all. (through it all.)
Even if saving you sends me to heaven.



done for now, haha

12.27am.
the moon is almost full
so i think i have to stop pointing up in the sky saying
"eh, look! full moon!!"
and find the back of my ear bleeding the next morning.
really happened to me twice before lah.
after tt i learnt my lesson alrd, lol


i should really take a rest from all this thinking
cus thinking too much is not good uh.
later my head blow so big, accumulated with thoughts
tt i wouldnt let out and i go mad o.o
lol, i'm still young and i dont wana end up at IMH so early..
not at all if possible, lol
okay, i'm talking crap.

just killing time
while waiting for ness to have her dinner.
and come back to chat
i think i havent chatted with her for 2 days alrd
before today
and during tt 2 days she managed to find a crush
and have sweet dreams (this is the only good point i think ;P the other one can...)
mmmm...
i wonder what Turkey is like;
i've never been there in my life
hopefully one day lah, haha

i just rmbred tt my physical fitness is weak
after this i'll go get some pepsi twist and do
100 slow push ups(:


wish me luck, haha

ahh, today's a shitty day..
there's jing ming and his obsession with Choi E Y
there's joshua who's fickle towards his Nexus
there's kenney who's always late for training
there's vanessa who's dreaming of her baby girl
and there's me who's feeling sucky for... many many reasons..


training today sucked.
shot 30m 122cm(271..) half heartedly
and shot 30m 80cm(138..) with no heart at all

i felt bored during trials
so i played abit with the wooden bow lor
shoot hunter style at the board;
shoot the grass;
shoot other boards (i got yellow for all except my own board -.-)
so tts how i got my 138 lor
i put there as M M M M M 1
and tt happened for arnd 4 ends
quite fun lah actually, at least i made some people laugh

den kena 'scolding' from Han Loon
cus my score was very low for "no valid reason", lol
den i had to shoot a second set of 30m 80cm(251)
i'm not even supposed to be at standard with a wooden bow in the first place lah..
i just realised how sucky a wooden bow actually is
its amazing how the ppl at the fun shoot can get all yellows o.o
i just CANT SHOOT WITHOUT MY INNO...
f***** up

so vanessa apparently has a crush on this cute little boy
she met at the hotel lobby -.-
*no comments*
(actually have but dun wana say)
hmm, why are little boys so lucky that they... ahem

feel damn hot now,
i think i go switch on my fan, on music and slack awhile
stomach damn full..
but i'm thirsty and hungry for chocs
and i got some things to think abt..
i think..



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