the love of my life, Cara Chang Cai Ling

Getting Fat

i miss those days when i had muscles & abs );

Teenage Dream

i've found her.. i cant believe i've actually found her. my missing puzzle piece.. Cara Chang

sometimes.. i feel like life's playing a game with me, when i want to take it seriously...












crush Me..

=S ............ September...

Anberlin - Inevitable

i swear.. that whenever i talk to you, my heart beats hell faster.
we speak in different voices, when fighting with the ones we've loved.
i swear.. i fought the old me and buried him in my past.
trials in life questions my existence here.
i swear.. i would do anything to make this right. anything..
i wana feel all superhuman when i'm with you.
i swear.. i'm being punished, every single second of this torment without you.
scars that will never show and wounds that will never bleed.
i swear.. ur someone who's smile makes me feel like i've been holding back.
i cant win i'm losing the fight.. all the time.
i swear.. for you, i'm trying to be a better man.
i made the same mistake twice, and i'm trying to flip the page.
i swear.. i'll be there.






















i think i know how.. on my own..

Daughtry - Crashed

every night,
waited for her to come on since.
to no avail, alright.
couldnt sleep, couldnt close my eyes.
i tried, i really did try.
and all i got were nightmares THIS size.
i just had to think, of all the things i've done to you.
and how to ever stand up again.

wanted to talk things out,
makes things up, clear the fog one day.
am i the only one trying to blow it away?
thought she was mad at me; she definitely is.
cus i tried to say hello today
but head held high, face turned away. yup..
i've got nth left to say.
i'm sorry. thats all this soul can think of pleading.



















yearn for forgiveness..

Silverstein - My Heroin(e)

my back is hurting like nuts.
the lower back esp. near the tail bone..
the part where controls ur legs to walk?
i cant even stand up now..
















ur heart's a maze and i'm its challenger..

WHAT THE EFF!!!!!!

hong wei's request!


gosh, found this 'lucky' seashell (that didnt bring me any luck at all) in my nasi lemak.
its no freaking bigger than the damn peanut o.o
sigh.. NO SHINY PEARL ):

30 Seconds to Mars - The Kill

i have gotta spill out all my thoughts one day..
its killing me inside. and this is the longest....



















just got deja vu. third time today

FRIENDSHIP

"Triple-F guy flirting with girls that are Above Average in school".

BIAS POINT OF VIEW
A fucking fuly & fat guy just flirt with the girl that i like, classic.
And very soon, she will join his army of bffff (best fucking female friend forever).
Why can't he just leave her alone and entertain the rest of his soldiers!? He very well knows that we have a thing for each other and he's there sabotaging. GAH!
Not that i want to say, even his easily expose flirting techniques are so outdated that my grandpa doesn't use it anymore:( ENOUGH, FULLSTOP

Afterall, She is just unaware of how i feel when she ignores me over and over again. I want to be there for you when you're down, when you're not alright & for everything in life. But you never once approached.. how can a couple build up trust if he's not even given the opportunity to... not one. not any.
you gotta start somewhere right.
"The hardest and most painful thing in life is to watch the one you love, love someone else". I bet everyone agrees with this fact.

GEEKS SPELLS DOOM TO COOL GUYS

A undeniable and detrimental fact, "hot girls love geeks"

BOY/GIRL

"Why are girls oblivious of guys flirting with them." This simply implies that girls are born out to be housewifes! Two weeks of my holiday flew like no bitch business:(

Avril Lavigne - Keep Holding On

holy shit.
i'm like tearing a lot. and i dunno why.
my eyes dont hurt, but maybe smth else does..



























sometimes.. i just.. wonder if we will ever be... and it breaks me down to think otherwise..

the day i tore my right bicep brachii.. (4 eggs)

The Red Jumpsuit Aparratus - Cat & Mouse

you never gave me the chance...












no matter how many good deeds you did, even if its a million.. one wrong is enough to jeopardize all. that. fucking. painful. effort..

TODAY IS THE DAY I PASSED MY DRIVING BTT !! (first attempt) lol..
THURSDAY
4th JUNE 2009
9.50am
SSDC

We Are Broken

i am outside
and i've been waiting for the sun
with my wide eyes
i've seen worlds that don't belong
my mouth is dry with words i cannot verbalize
tell me why we live like this

keep me safe inside
your arms like towers
tower over me

yeah
cause we are broken
what must we do to restore
our innocence
and all the promise we adored
give us life again cause we just wanna be whole

lock the doors
cause i'd like to capture this voice
that came to me tonight
so everyone will have a choice
and under red lights
i'll show myself it wasn't forged
we're at war
we live like this

keep me safe inside
your arms like towers
tower over me

cause we are broken
what must we do to restore
our innocence
and all the promise we adored
give us life again cause we just wanna be whole

tower over me
tower over me
...and i'll take the truth at any cost.










seriously just fuck off, izzul..

wtf sia..
i should just quit living, seriously and fucking furiously -.-
i just feel so.... URGH!!
ccb.. its like the world is moving so fucking fast with
so many things going on at the same time..
WAIT UP for fuck's sake..

or maybe i should just fuck some of the burdens off my fucking chest..
and walk a little faster with what i have left
to catch up with the freaking world..
i've got no time for....
and yet seems like nothing is happening at all.. wtf.
feel like killing myself or smth.. (and breaking down is NOT in my vocab -.-)

i'm neither here nor there..
so i should just like fuck everything else and study non-stop and become an ugly geek..
geeks are better off in life anyway... NOWADAYS tt is..
hong wei might be the only person who knows EXACTLY what i mean..
and my life is fucking screwed up..






why cant life just go the way you want it to..
why is it that i am always the one who needs to work so much extra harder to get what i want..
when its a walk in the park to most of them...
why does my life have to be so complicated all the fucking time -.-
why am i trying so hard to get smth that doesnt even belong to me in the first place...
why is life so fucking unfair...
why.. do people who do not want that something as much as you do, get it and leave you with nth left to spur you on in life...
why...











fuck this world.. and this fucking life -.-